- Is it possible, I wonder, to be whole in our spiritual lives without being intimate with death? Is it possible to truly be at one with Spirit and with our own sacredness without healing this fear of physical death? Isn’t death part of the divine Möbius strip of creation and dissolution and creation?
- How can I set on fire my passion for Spirit and the divine without this healing? Otherwise, won’t my ability to live my true purpose be subverted by this fear of death? Death of loss. Loss of those I love. Loss of a job, a home, a future. Death comes in many forms and our fear may just be derailing our true expression.
- Perhaps the only way to heal this fear is to become intimate with it and to truly let ourselves feel the feelings that arise when we see it in our own lives or the lives of others. Too often we numb ourselves by staring at our screens or indulging in food or substances that dull our feelings.
- What if instead, we allowed ourselves to sink down into the darkness of our grief? What if we gave ourselves that gift? Or what if we held someone else’s hand as they sat in their own darkness? What would emerge from the darkness?
- Perhaps an open heart would flower. Or compassion for ourselves. A conversation with Spirit. What might come from the ashes of this burning?
THE HOLY LONGING
I praise what is truly alive,
What longs to be burned to death.
A strange feeling comes over you
when you see the silent candle burning.
Now you are no longer caught
in the obsession with darkness,
and a desire for higher love-making
sweeps you upward.
Distance does not make you falter,
now, arriving in magic, flying,
and finally insane for the light,
you are the butterfly and you are gone.
And so long as you haven’t experienced
this: to die and so to grow,
you are only a troubled guest
on the dark earth.
~ Goethe, trans. Robert Bly